Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Crying in public is super embarrassing

First of all, I had a great "extra long weekend" as my school calls it (we had Friday to Monday off). I spent my weekend at church camp where I grew in my walk with God whilst bonding with fellow church members through fellowship, late night mafia/assassins, Disney movie skits, and numerous other silly games.

However, that retreat definitely did not last long enough and yesterday I had to return to the reality. Today has been quite a ride, filled with several flights and drops: balancing sickness, school work, family problems and other commitments.

Sunday, April 4, 2010


a feeling of discontent or covetousness with regard to another's advantages, success, possessions, etc.
Antonym: comfort, confidence, contentedness

I'm a person who likes to avoid drama as much as possible but as with all of us, I have a lot of internal struggles. One that God is currently testing me with is envy. I'm really unsure about how I should act. I know I should be happy for others about their advantages, success and possessions but what am I supposed to do about myself? Is it okay for me to still be aiming for better, even if that means I'm overtaking another? Will that still mean I'm happy for the advantages, success and possessions of others? How am I supposed to achieve the feeling of comfort, confidence and contentedness?

Also, Reality TV stirs up even more envy. I was watching MTV Teen Cribs the other day and I was so jealous of the people's houses. This is not good for my mentality.

Thursday, April 1, 2010


I was ripping photos to make a sort of photo montage thing as part of my experimentation for my recent VA project (the end product was really bad).

It's currently holidays and I'm planning on going out with my friends a few times, but I'm mostly going to be at home with nothing to do. It's the perfect opportunity to do something more with this blog.